monotony

same old thing day in and day out. get up, go to work. work. go home. what causes a person to not be motivated? boredom? hopelessness? do I care? not really. i just want to go home. clean my house and ride my bike. i’m having a day where i wished i won the lottery. not billions… maybe a million. or a few hundred thousand. enough to pay off the bills and be able to buy some fun stuff for some short term happiness. bill paying is long term though. maybe have someone landscape the house. paint it. build a nice deck. pool? carpet. train the dog.