a whole lotta suck

mucous, hot, crowded hallway, nothing to do, hot, cramps, blown receiver. ughhh... how fucking boring. i'm so bummed i'm not here, so much so that i had tears. no blog updates as everyone's blog i read is at the race. the only friend i have that's not there is sara. my work friends are even all there. i plan on feeling sorry for myself a little while longer then i'll probably, i dunno go do something. i almost want to go into labor so i have something to do, but john's not here obviously and that would suck. it's 10:30 and already near 90 degrees. swim tonight and cook out at my aunt's. tomorrow ? who the hell knows.