hey tony

you da man. thanks dude. sea otter is no longer a distant thought. we leave in 4 hours. damn, i better dry my hair. g' night.

it's pretty good

the weather is nothing to complain about today. fun ride in the city last night. i'm not used to riding in traffic. only seeing out of one eye complicates things. made me really want to fix the steamroller. beth's bike is back. i can imagine her excitement. tonight hopefully traffic will be light. hope to get a ride in, but probably not. john is taking care of business which means that'll leave me taking a walk or something... tomorrow morning though i'd like to do some offroad riding to really see how out of shape i'm in. sitting here right now i feel like i've forgotten how to go over a log. stupid logs. why do i think that way? i mean seriously i've been hopping logs for 10 years! and every year i have the stupid thought that i won't remember. tomorrow last stage of the tour. should be fun. i'll be glad it's over. it's 4pm. i wanna leave. but i came in late. dang. got into it with the marketing guy today. why do things have to be difficult. hmmmm... we can probably finish john's hardtail this weekend. i think. i wanna ride ride ride.................

i'm a crabaholic

mood stabilizers is where it's at... maybe. if they save me from my misery i'd gladly pop a pill a day. james actually got me excited about bike parts... something i haven't felt in awhile. i've been providing for everyone else and neglected myself lately. thanks james. i owe you. the postal service has been a fave lately... all-time qb too. it must be ben gibbard eh. bike off to sea otter. now it's just a waiting game. i'd really like to buy some junk for the otter, but as usual, no money. sucks. riding the tour course tonight. hopefully all goes well.

backstage

i'm feeling way better. went for a few rides. feels damn good to be outside. hopefully ride tonight if the rain stays away. nasty storms possibly circleing up from the south. we'll see. i love riding bikes.

sicky sicky

still sick. bummer. it's sooo nice out too. 60+. stuck in the office jealous of the people who "called in sick" today. lucky fuckers. i guess i'm just bummed that i'm really sick. first nice days of the year and i can't enjoy them. okay, enough of feeling sorry for myself... real busy at work today. nothing new there. got a new bar. truvativ bar. now all i need is a stem. but i guess for right now, the 90mm will have to do for now. bontrager or wait? i'll wait i s'pose. blur needs some love. maybe tonight.

sick

since saturday... ughhh. put me out of my misery.

yawn

man, i was really tired last night. painted john's redline... again. didn't get home til after 8pm. i was exhausted. i think (and hope) john is feeling better today. he sounded better this morning. i couldn't get outta bed this morning. i wanted so bad to be up and moving before 7am. no go. i woke up a bit before 8! i guess i needed my sleep. so much work to do for work and i just want to take today and tomorrow off... i'm taking 1/2 day tomorrow. i've decided.

today is the greatest day

for someone i suppose. john's still sick. carbon is a fucking monster. dude, you can't leave him alone for a minute. i tried to post a pic for my avatar... no go. i emailed their help desk. took a spin on the newly built black bike tonight... woo, it was cold. but did it feel damn good! hooey! redline on the way for johnny boy. it's the same one... i'm kinda wishing he got the red. i really like that one... it's racey lookin. i still think i'm a fucking idiot. i still can't seem to do anything right... am i just too stressed? it seems i never get to sit down... i've been home since 6pm and this is the first time i've sat all night. it's been like this for sooo long. two bday parties this weekend. john has the tour... ho hum. seems like i never do anything for me. but what do i want to do? fuck fuck fuck two bugs in a rug the one bug says fuck you the other says fuck yeah. i wish i was the bug that said fuck yeah... that bug seems to have a great outlook.

fuckin' hay right

sycip was suppose to be rebuilt today. cables, housing, new stem, bar, etc. stem was too short. so i put the bonty stuff on the ano. looks good. i'm excited to ride that bike with the new set up. when? talk to mother nature. she's been her usual bitch self. no relief to our crap weather anytime near. the catt's still sick. bummer. i'm lonely. no workout today. well kinda, with hand weights... i wish i rode. but at this point i'd be completely unmotivated. lots to do tomorrow. workwise and homewise. need to say goodbye to the airborne.

nada spicy

frame's done. looks damn good. finish the build tomorrow along with some other bike tinkering. nothing going on tonight. i wish i was tired so i could just go to bed.

PHEWey

audit over. i feel like a big weight lifted off my shoulder. tonight paint john's frame. whitey cracked so now it's a rush to get this gal painted. camo black it is. alpha q stuff on the way. spot frame being built. spot cross frame for john on the way, well almost.

next build

pure energy

something i don't have as of late. it's the weather... yeah yeah yeah, i speak of the weather often, but it weighs heavily on my mood. nice weather will come. just not soon enough :)

talking shit

been digging pinback lately. looking forward to the weekend... however i have to get by the UL audit on friday... i'm nervous about it. no weekend plans though. maybe just clean the place. like really clean. i'll need help with that though. million dollar baby maybe?

it's almost ten thirty

and believe it or not i am heading up for bed. this has got to be some kind of record... although i just remember i have to put sheets on case's bed... no matter, i shall make it quick. no workout tonight except for some crunches and hand weights. i've got two sickies on my hand... so pimp if you read this, thanks for the offer of heading over, but i don't want to spread their disease. spot brand will be my next frame... gumball blue to be exact. full custom. won't be as bling as the sycip, but i don't want it to be either. i think i may have the cat secretly excited about a spot brand as his commuter... mr. anti-steel himself. he'll love it. better get on selling the airborne............................................. til tomorrow suckahs.

fook

what a night! actually fell asleep when i wanted to only to wake up at midnight to dog piss in the hallway... while cleaning that up, went to make sure casey was still tucked in nice and sweet... she peed the bed! i just changed her sheets that night! words can't describe how irritated i was. then to top it off as i'm bringing her sheets downstairs the dog shit in the living room... so i banged my head on the door. why? no clue. don't know where that came from. so anyway, i'm making today a better day. it's looking up so far. michael from spot got back to me... sea otter hotels is looking really good. now all i need is to win the lottery. but i guess you need to play to win.

passing through unconscious state

what a hormone induced weekend. fuck. i can't believe how out of sorts i was emotionally. i feel like a totally different person today. the weather still sucks. i can't get into this cold-it-may-snow- crap any longer. i'm longing for sun, temps in the 40s and 50s which will then make me crave 60s and 70s... then it'll be so fucking hot i'll want it to snow. truth be told though i would rather be sweating my ass off. a sweaty ass induced by hot summer weather i'm down with. i was thinking about all the events i'd like to hit next year... fuck, it's a lot. i always have high hopes for the season, but this is different. i feel my motivation is high. this year i've gone back to changing my eating habits and working out earlier and often. i'm hoping casey will work out at a lot of events. that's my one fear. i for sure don't want to diss her. i want her there. i'm hoping she will have a good time. my goal will have to be to finish way before the experts start. ha. we'll see. i hope i don't disappoint myself. anyway, i'm still looking for a new steel frame. i want one designed around 100mm. light blue is a definite fo' sure. gunnar, desalvo, spot, curtlo... i've already got a sycip so i want some variety. i'm leaning towards spot. michael is suppose to be getting back to me tomorrow am. we'll see. i need, well okay, i want to do some qbp shopping... should i build my own wheels or have them do it? i'm just thinking of time and patience... neither of which i have right now. i already need to build up the kings. we'll see the price diff on the wheels... blah blah blah. uniforms end of march. what else? sea otter was creeping slowly, now it's about ready to fucking hit us over the head... outta nowhere it seems. where's my pics? i suck at hooking up the digital. tomorrow perhaps?

mean creek

good movie. i recommend it. lazy day today.

hot dang

it was bad luck night. no swatches. voler messed up zipcode. they were in peru. i got us lost again. i have come to the conclusion that i'm very dumb. i think i just get so nervous about things and try not to make a mistake, that i make a mistake. i've also just had no confidence in myself lately which doesn't help. i hope today brings something better. i hope the weekend goes well. not sure what i can do to ensure it's a good one. i'm really hungry. maybe i'll try to go snag a snack. lunch seems far away.

so much beauty in dirt

mtb season will be here soon, i keep telling myself that. i tried to post a blog last night, but i recvd an error message, then i just gave up. it was too many words to retype. i'll recap.... felt better, a lot actually. wanted to ride last night. well i still feel good. i didn't ride last night, way too tired and i didn't get home til after 7pm. i rode this morning though. snow outside again. when will it end? jersey decision time tonight. i'm leaning towards slate. i'm feeling good this morning. rode already and will probably do some cross training later. bos is back. it was good to see him. i'll see him again tonight. i really don't have anything interesting to say at this point. maybe later...